Andre.

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart and I watched as he tried
To reassemble it
And my momma swore that she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist

But darling...You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

Well maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone
Or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this keeping a comfortable Distance
And up until now i swored to myself that I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well...You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of whats part of me here
i know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me of some kind of proof it's not a dream

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing
Oh and I'm on my way to believing

It was time for a change

hi. :D I doubt anyone will read this, because I haven't bothered to write in so long. Well, I have a new boyfriend. :D and i'm so crazy about him, so crazy in love. hahaha. shit i'm terrible though, I left John behind. But to be perfectly honest, despite all the things I promised, I'm never going back. Never. The grass really is greener on the other side. And the funniest thing is, as much as I loved him, as soon as I stepped into school after breaking up with him, I felt so free. Like I'd just gotten out of a cage. Well, not a small tiny cramped cage, but a cage nonetheless. I was controlled yet happy, and still I've never been so happy with someone like I am with Andre. The age gap doesn't even matter. If I were twenty it wouldn't be an issue. it's the whole teen thing. Anyway it's only a one year difference from my age now. So it's not like it matters. I love him. :)

LMAO

hello, hello, hello how low?

wow, i haven't written in so long. I guess alot has changed. Or maybe nothing at all. All those important people in my life are the same, except with a few additions. The people who make my day better are a little different though.FYP presentation is over for now, so after this we'll be moving on to the next part. Things with John are fine, although i hardly see him now. We haven't been fighting much. Mo died recently, and we buried her earlier this week. I was surprised that I was as sad as i was. When I went to work, the same morning I found out she'd died( i also removed her from her cage. she was stiff, probably in rigor mortis), I was thinking about it all the way to work, and I even started tearing.And it was so difficult to tell Rohan what had happened, why I was so quiet that morning.

Audrey is leaving soon, so I need to get her a birthday present before she leaves. I can't think of something to save my life by the way. I know what i'm giving her because she's leaving, but i've yet to tackle that. I think it'll take alot of work... I can't believe she's leaving in less than a month. She's been the only constant in my life for the past few years. :( HOW DO I LEEEEVVVVVEEEE WIDOUT UUUUU

one of the peeps who makes my day. :))

Emotion overload

ugh. I'm pissed because Bear deleted me off facebook, wtf. HE added me, and i'm the one who should be having problems with him, and not the other way around. I know it's damn childish, and I shouldn't give a shit, but it's really upsetting to me! Funny thing is what bothers me the most is actually that by now I really shouldn't be bothering at all what any of them are doing. It really sucks though. We used to be close. and then everything fucked up along the way. It's his fault though isn't it? I tellz you, this whole thing is like breaking up. I knew it wouldn't last, but it was awesome while it did. Like I had somewhere I belonged. Then I found out about us breaking up from someone else. And that's not how it's supposed to be. Then now when i see any of them, it's like I miss their company. But something in me hates their guts. And now i'm so confused. I don't know how I feel.

On top of that, worrying and worrying over FYP is really bothering me. There are so many things i'm supposed to have done and supposed to be doing that i'm not. Argh. I hate school. :'(

Back to school

I HATE SCHOOL. i'd rather be working.

Zoo job

So I got this job right, my dream job? But I never really thought how tough it would be. I could complain about the blister on my toe, or the aching in my legs, or the almost entire loneliness because I don't really have anyone to relate to, but the toughest thing is that I can't find time for my boyfriend.
Chances are, I won't see him for days more, and honestly, even though I met him just yesterday, we didn't even have more than 5 minutes alone time because he was so busy. and i was feeling so pms-y about being neglected but I wanted to be supportive at the same time. For awhile i was at a loss as to what to say or whether to even say anything at all to him about it, and this cut down further on the only time we had because I was feeling so moody. I miss him. It's hard enough to find time to see him even when i'm completely free, and now when I have a seven day work week? Sigh. It sucks. hahaha. it's funny that when i applied for this job that i'd have no time for him, when right now it's that he has no time for me.